I’ve been a Christian for 33 years, and Lord KNOWS I have entered dry deserts, deep valleys, and massive pitfalls through my walk with Jesus. I have risen so high on His love, sometimes I feel like I am soaring from the sheer power of the Holy spirit. I have felt that soul shaking heart trembling awe of experiencing the glory of God. I have walked through my days seeking His will for my life and His direction for my path. I often listen for the whispers of His guiding voice. I have also been submerged in sin soaked waters gasping for air, begging and pleading for His Mercy.
Our walk with the Lord is never easy, nor simple.
Am I Right?
I can have moments of questioning and doubt, desperate to find validation, confirmation and evidence of His Truth. Do you? These Mustard Seed Moments, often leave me feeling empty and defeated. I can stay stuck in them for more than just one moment, and feel the anguish of everything I believe start to tremble and crack- threatening to crumble into millions of pieces. It can be terrifying to have these thoughts, these heartaches. Especially if all you ever believed to be true is now at stake. I’ve spent my life clinging to my faith, in the throes of all the wavering waves that can hit anywhere at anytime- and sometimes- it’s my faith that gets submerged in the water.
But, I’m so grateful God is always faithful in and through it all- loving me right where I am.
No matter how saturated I become in my disbelief, I find comfort in knowing that He still believes in me. No matter where I turn in search of Truth, He will be there.
And friends, I promise the same for you.
God believes in you. Yes, YOU.
And God is there for you too.
I wrote about my Mustard Seed Moment over at Her View From Home. It was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever written. Perhaps my words may resonate with you? Head over and dive into my despair, but I pray you find hope and comfort in knowing He is in those moments too.
We may dry up, fall down, plunge into pits or soar in the Spirit. We may shake and tremble in awe of His Presence in our lives. We may seek His will in all we do, and we can certainly slip off the cliffs of our mountain tops and wade in waters that are dark and murky and far from clean.
We may also doubt and question it all. Stay stuck in those Mustard Seed Moments, as those waves pull us under.
No matter all our fluctuating circumstances and our ever-changing emotions and our inconsistent decisions-
I find comfort in knowing God stays the same.
He is and always will be The Great I Am.
Mathew 17:20 NIV
He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”