Amidst the angst there was peace. It was nestled down below all the layers of the tumultuous turmoil. It was in the deepest corner of my soul, flickering it’s light just enough to carry me through. As each thunder rolled through its course of questioning, it beckoned a promise…and a purpose.
I am in this. Make it known.
His call echoed through every dark canyon of despair, every winding turn through this maze of the unknown. I heard Him, felt Him, and believed Him.
But funny thing- the Hope wasn’t attached to the tumor’s outcome…and what was to come, as precious people prayed for that and so did I.
The hope was firmly grasped onto Him.
I had no confidence in where I would be going… there was nothing to trust, nothing to believe. It was a reality I could not control- or wish hard enough to take away-to fight with such intensity, that it might steer my course differently.
This small moment on my timeline was crafted and created in this fallen world we all live in. What peace can possibly dwell in that?
Perhaps there are bits of peace that flutter in and out of hearts with beautiful wishes and encouraging hope. I know I have been drenched in goodness and love more than I could ever dream. Prayers are powerful. And the beauty that lies in deep friendships, fierce loyalty and enduring support is true and real. Oh, how deeply I cherish this part of humanity.
There is true comfort in that.
But I believe peace- can’t be found there.
The tumor- this short-lived path to a beautiful place of benign…
The “bad luck” that will brush the face of every one of us, somehow-someday…
Is simply life here on earth- simply that.
For the ebb and flow of the state of affairs and the condition of our hearts and this place we all live in-
Is futile.
God…
Is Forever.
And ever.
Amen.
This my friends, is the only peace you will find in this world-
Because frankly-
It’s out of this world.
This post actually just gave me chills, Chris! The power of prayer is strong. And you have a strong support system, my friend. Benign is a wonderful word, isn’t it? Sending my love!
Thanks SO much Jen for all your sweet support and prayers through this! You are part of my strong support system… and I am so grateful for that!
Amen, Chris. Amen.
Love you Alison!! I KNOW you get this… XO
Another masterpiece! Highlighting The Master 😉 Love your beautifully vivid, carefully placed words — so beautiful, so comforting, so REAL! Love you!
Thank you Marcia. And now I pray for YOU to hold on to this peace as well, my friend. XOXO
Beautiful post and message Chris. So glad you felt this comfort as you waited in limbo.-Ashley
Thanks Ashley! I love you and your precious support. 🙂
It is out of this world. Amen to everything you said. I’m so glad you can find peace through the “bad luck” things that happen to everyone at some point.
Thanks dear friend. It’s really the only thing that never changes- because we all know, this world is always changing, as are our lives. Can’t count on a thing in this world! XO
Beautiful! “It is out of this world” that is well put. I am going to have to quote you on that.
I got one of those “Hyper jolts” when that came out of my fingers… and my heart. I don’t think I could have been more clear, amen? 😉
SO grateful I have something ‘out of this world’ to depend on… while in this world. XO
Amen, my soul sister, AMEN!!! Love You! XOXO. ~Amber~
AMEN SISTER!!!! Oh I could just crawl through this laptop and smother you with hugs and kisses!! XOXO
Very true. Friendships are a precious blessing but Hope is a gift that runs even deeper – straight to the gift Giver. It flows only from Him. Love, LOVE you Chrissy WPB! And more thankful than I can express for the outcome in this and your friendship.
Thank you for being there with me in it, Tam. And for always being by my side… through the laughter (GUT blasting laughter) and the tears (heart blasting tears). SO grateful for you WPB!!!
I know you have walked this path before with a different outcome, and I am so SO grateful that you are HEALED. XOXO
Beautiful. So glad you are feeling peace. Xox
Thanks Leah!! It’s really the only thing I can rely on- God IS in control. And I truly believe that whatever happens, He will work things to the good-somehow, someway. XO
HA! Yes, my friend! ONLY in Him will we ever find that peace that passes ALL understanding! Phil 4:6-7, Isaiah 26:3. Thanks Chris for always giving us a seasoned word! Love you lady! xoxoxo
Ah Michell!! I LOVE those verses you shared!!! AMEN to them. And AMEN to the peace that passes ALL understanding!!!! XOXO
Amen! So beautifully written. The power of prayer is truly amazing. I’m so glad you were able to find peace thru all this. The wait is a torturous one! Then when the call comes you never really want to know the answer, afraid to get it. I know that feeling all to well.
Exactly Melissa!! It was awful- but I am constantly reminded of how much worse it could be. I try to focus on that as best I can. I am sorry to hear you know that feeling too- ugh. I pray you are okay!!
I am a huge believer in the power of prayer and the peace only God can bring. I am so glad you clung to him while you waited for your news.
I love your comment soooo much!!! I am so glad you came by to share your precious words and faith here, new friend!! I love that you get it. And I am so happy to have you here!!!
So beautifully written!
Thank you my friend! Thank you… 🙂
You always write so beautifully! I am glad you are finding a little peace – you deserve it!
It’s a necessity to have this kind of peace in life, isn’t it? I don’t know if I really deserve it, but I am so grateful it’s mine for the taking!!
Chris, you’re such a talented and amazing writer. I’m so glad that your scare led you down the path to the benign, and to the divine (hey that even rhymed).
You’re a poet and you didn’t KNOW it!! 😉
I love you girl. I really do.
Chris, I couldn’t agree with you more and you said this beautifully. I seriously need to come here more often and I promise you I will now!! 🙂 🙂
Thanks SO much Janine!! Your sweet words mean so much to me…
It’s A DEAL!! We are officially ‘connected’! FINALLY! XOXO 🙂
God is forever and ever. I just caught up with the last two weeks – Wow, Chris! Your faith, and your humanity, show through in your beautiful words. You didn’t sugar coat it, but you did ground it in your faith. If ever there was a strong witness that God cares, the God walks with you, that God made you, then these posts were that witness.
Oh thank you so so much Katy!! I am so grateful for your incredible encouragement and beautiful words. I just love that you ‘got it’. 😉
Makes me think of Simon Peter saying, “Lord to whom shall we go? You alone have the words of eternal life.” John 6:68
I could just as easily say, Lord, where else can we go? You alone are peace. xoxo C
AMEN to that Colleen. Amen. 🙂 Thanks so much for coming by. So grateful!!