It’s amazing how we remember certain moments in our lives with such clarity and seem to carelessly forget so many more. I reflect on this post I wrote around this time four years ago, and I remember this day like it was yesterday. As I relive this glorious afternoon once again through my reflection- I’m convinced that if we live every moment with intention, we can embrace more moments just like this.
May you discover the richness, the wonder, and the gratitude in your day- no matter the circumstances you find yourself in…
Today I had a moment. You know those moments where you find yourself in awe of the miracles in your life? The ones that catch your breath when you least expect it? It snuck up on me. We are blissfully busy with recitals, end of year plays, ceremonies and sports games. There are multiple field trips and parties and gifts to be given to all the amazing people that helped my children grow through the year. May is just that way. The house is a mess, the loads of laundry are in a pile fermenting in the basement, and I am tired. Very tired. A good tired. But tired.
After a day at the park with my son’s kindergarten class, I planned to get my kids fed, unpacked from school, and off to the gym for my friend’s awesome ZUMBA class. But my body kept twitching that familiar “I’m breaking down” twitch, and I battled between how much I could push it and how much I should rest it. Today I had a choice. The gym was optional. Most often, we mothers do NOT have a choice to rest. Our children demand that we “push it” and we always come through. This time I got to choose. I chose rest. Tonight was the first night in weeks we had nowhere to race off to in a hurry. I decided that we all needed to just stay home.
So as the kids ran around the yard and I watered the freshly planted flowers, we cranked up the cd player and Adele’s voice echoed through the wind. After spraying my kids with the hose, I sat to rest for just a moment- thinking of the laundry, the dust, the dirty floors, the piles of school papers and the dinner that needed to be cooked.
My son came over soaking wet to climb onto my lap and snuggle for warmth in the sun. As I held him and rocked to the music, I looked at my daughter anticipating her jumping to fight for her place on my lap. But instead I saw her swinging high with one hand holding the rope and the other clearly forming a microphone held up to her lips as she sang with a passion only a pretend brokenhearted 9-year old soul could sing. Her eyes closed tight while feeling every pulsating beat of the love song. She was in another imaginary world. I remember when I would do that as a child, well into my teens. I would sing to my record albums and 45’s for hours at a time in our basement, even into my college dorm room years. Some songs I would listen to over and over again, as I could never get enough. I loved watching her. I loved to see that same passion.
As my son squeezed me tighter and my daughter sang louder, the sun beat down on my face and my drenched hot body absorbed the joy. And then it hit me. I went into that out of body perspective, when you look from above down at the picture of your own life…
And I saw a mother holding her precious son, watching her other growing girl nearby singing from her soul and swinging in the wind. There we were. Enjoying this free moment in our beautiful big yard, outside our lovely home, with nothing but amazing blessings behind us, and a wonderful future ahead of us. The love of my life will be home soon from a good job that God handed him through a close friend. After the soccer games and recitals, the plays and the field trips…we have one evening to rest before moving on to t-ball games, end of year parties and ceremonies and graduations. As I lifted my face to the brightness of the sun, my body drenched from the wetness of my shivering soaked child, rocking, and singing Adele on a warm spring day…
I realized once again, how good life really is.
I anticipated my son squirming off of me within a minute to go play, but he didn’t. We stayed morphed together for some time rocking and singing together, squeezing each other tighter the longer he stayed. My daughter continued her performance, as I would open my eyes every once in a while to watch her, and then smile so deep I could barely hold all the joy birthed from this moment.
I thought about my friend who doesn’t get to see her kids every day due to her divorce and how deeply she misses them. I remembered another mom I saw in a wheelchair at the recital who had been bedridden for months with a mysterious debilitating disease- no answers, no solutions, no healing to be found. My heart groaned with a thunderous ache, while I pictured her beautiful face still filled with fervent strength laced with hopelessness. I realized another dear friend would soon be leaving her infant to go back to work, not because she wanted to- but because she had to. Sadness stirred my memory of another precious friend who lost her baby and how the grief still consumes her. I exhaled a long sigh, intense with the kind of emotion that makes your lower lip quiver.
I lifted up a quiet prayer for them all, with a keen awareness to the world all around me and the richness I hold in this moment.
This. This is it. I am so blessed.
Janine Huldie says
Beautiful moment and seriously these are the moments we do need to enjoy and hold dear to us always. Thanks for sharing and hugs, Chris!! <3
Agree Janine! I know you embrace them just like I do. 🙂
I spent some time walking by the beach today soaking up the sun. In part because I read this today. Thanks for the reminder.
I would have LOVED to be walking on that beach with you, my friend. Oh so much we would talk about! XOXO
Aw…. yeah. My sister is going to go back to work soon and will surely miss her newborn. This is my little sister. As you know, Lindsay is a DJ who works nights so they’ll do something different.
Anyway, tangent. I spent all of today with Des – in the rain again – and he was on my case a lot, but ultimately I drank up so many moments.
I’m sure your sister will have an adjustment, for sure. Bless her. And I’m so glad you always do seem to drink up those moments beautifully, my friend. I love that about you!
Kristi Campbell says
Aw this, beautiful friend. I love love love those moments. And your heart. Thank you for this gorgeous reminder today.
Thank you so much for reading it, embracing it and celebrating it with me, love. I know you get this. XOXO
I’m stopping. I’m breathing in. I will do this for the next few weeks, which will be a flurry of final exams, gradation practices and celebrations, and crazy end of year stuff. Good stuff – things I want to remember.
Thanks for the reminder, Chris. x0x0
Yes Dana- BIG MOMENTS for you, mama! Embrace them all. XOXO
Lynn J Simpson says
Beautifully written. To let go of the ‘to do’ list that can repeat in your brain like an irritating song lyric is to become peacefully present. I hope you have had billions more of those peaceful, present moments over the last four years!
Thanks so much Lynn. 🙂 I believe I have had many more magical moments like this! BUT- I think I’ve missed many too. I must remind myself often to tune into the blessings right before my eyes.
Just gorgeous. Gorgeous. And thank you for the reminder to cherish the NOW 🙂
Thanks Lizzi… when YOU say it’s gorgeous, that really makes my heart swell. <3 Yes- let's always try to cherish the NOW. 🙂
I really, really LOVE this!!! I am crying a little! Thank you so much for the reminder to realize just how blessed we are.
Aw! I was crying a little when I wrote, and rewrote this! I’m so glad this touched you, Kori! I think we all need these reminders once in a while. 🙂
Thank you for sharing this breathtaking moment, Chris. Absolutely beautiful! I love those times that make me stop and think, wow, I’m so incredibly blessed. Sometimes we really have to look on these moments as an outsider to truly see what we have, just as you did here, my friend. Adele is awesome. What I would have given to see your sweet little girl imitating her. Precious!
Ah, thank you for celebrating this moment with me Candace. I can still picture it all so vividly. It’s really something, how that happens.
Beautiful. I’ll set my scene for you:
How about one small cabin, one loud speaker blaring Bruno Mars, and 25 Girl Guides in an epic dance off??!! LOL
My ears are still ringing, but it was a great moment to witness. I am glad I got to be there and share it with my daughter.
Though it will be too soon EVER to hear that song again. LOL
OH Leslie!!! I LOVE IT!!!!
Kenya G. Johnson says
Beautiful post Chris. I have to remind myself of this all the time. Sometimes I feel like I’ve worked so hard to deserve that still moment in my own world but then Christopher comes inside from playing, and asks do I want to do something. Yesterday I said, “No. While you were out playing I had to go to the grocery store and cook dinner.” I did sit down for a moment to read (what I’d been looking foward to all day) then I said I can do this in a few hours when I get in bed. So he and I watched a movie. While I sat in the rocking chair, he propped a pillow on my legs to lean back on me. I felt like you described and it is awesome to feel loved and blessed and able. I so glad I didn’t miss out on it.
Side note: I feel asleep after the first paragraph of reading. LOL. Oh well.
ha! Love that Kenya. 🙂 Good for YOU for that intentional decision. Sometimes I make the right choice, and other times I fail miserably to embrace the moment. I’m so glad you embraced THAT moment well, despite losing your reading time!
Wonderfulness… Yes, we must always take the time to JUST BE! That is when God’s presence is amplified!
And yet for me, it will always be the hardest thing to do. But yes oh yes- AMPLIFIED indeed, Vicki! That is such a beautiful way of putting it. 🙂
Marie Kléber says
What a beautiful moment!
From time to time it’s good to listen to ourselves, to rest and just be, to breath in the infinite power of love. There is so much love and gratitude in your lines Chris.
These are the days that show us how blessed we are. And how much joy we can find in the little things of life.
So beautifully said, my friend. Yes. Exactly that. <3